FEBRUARY IS FULL OF LOVE

LOVE

 "Accept the things to which fate binds you and love the people with whom fate brings you together but do so with all your heart." ~Marcus Aurelius

LOVE

"With love, even the rocks will open." ~ Hazret Inayat Khan

Just a thought for today.  Go out into the day and just love everything and everyone in it with no exceptions. 

ANXIOUS

This morning I'm just anxious, for a lot of reasons.  Lots of other mixed emotions going on, too....bitter, hurt, angry....keep coming up and I don't like those at all.  Glad I have counseling today! I tend to feel slightly off and a little not-so-sane before I go and then magically all is put into perspective and I leave feeling centered and balanced.  I think sometimes we get so stuck in our own heads and need to work through our thoughts and feelings.  In the past, I have strictly relied on friends (as do most of us) to work through things, be our sounding boards.  Anyway, I guess my point is, don't let how you feel get the best of you, talk your way through it....with someone.....find your center and balance....your happy. 

Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance and order and rhythm and harmony. Thomas Merton 

FULL STEAM AHEAD

Whoa, Whoa, Whoa!  It is so strange to me how I can be so "full steam ahead" like it's nobody's business and a phone call can stop me in my tracks.  A simple message from a good friend and I've been sitting on the message for a full week, unable to return the phone call.  I just can't seem to dial the numbers.  This friend was someone who came into my and Mark's life at the same time.  I'm unsure if I talked to this person in the first few months after Mark died, those first few months being one huge blur.  And, now, so much time has gone by it just seems that it brings up so many memories, it's another hurdle for me, another reminder of what's gone.  Mark was a huge piece of our friendship.  We would laugh at the trials and tribulations of marriage and the "bickering" Mark and I would do.  Mark thought the world of her, one of the nicest and most genuine people he'd met, and I'd have to agree. 

I know this friend will understand when I finally call her back.  I just have to prepare myself, emotionally.  I hate that.  I hate that at even the thought of calling, I can feel the tears stinging.  I know she would understand and I know it's a hurdle I can jump over.  I've jumped this very same hurdle a million other times and it never gets any easier.  I will definitely call, soon. 

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at it destination full of hope. ~Maya Angelou

ONE STEP AT A TIME

Do not be overwhelmed.

This is a time of great change.

Observe. Be Aware. Be Alert.
Take one step at a time.

Follow what is in your heart.

You will understand what your direction is to be.

Truth, Simplicity and Love

is the guide for living in this world.

Observe change through the teachings of

Truth, Simplicity and Love.

The unreal cannot overwhelm the real.

— Babaji

CLEANING AND PURGING

I spent most of the day yesterday cleaning and purging.  This purging thing is feeling so good.  I'm truly amazed at all the stuff that has accumulated.  All the stuff that "I had to have" or the "kids needed" and then there is all the stuff I have some sort of emotional attachment to.

I honestly feel like I'm tearing down walls.  Walls that have been up for a very long time. Walls that made me stubborn and controlling.  I also feel like I'm preparing myself for "what's next?".  It's just good.

Now, don't get me wrong, I still like to shop, I still like "stuff". A new outfit, shoes or pocketbook will always put a smile on my face!  I'm just coming to terms with what I really need and what I really want and what truly makes me happy.

"You can never get enough of what you don't need to make you happy." ~  Eric Hoffer